I blocked my memories from around 4 years old to about 8 or 9 years old. I disturbing flashes, but they happen randomly. Now I am studying my families history and I'm finding out a lot of things that my family are involved with. And well I have seen patterns in almost every generations. Then there are rumors of our family is cursed. And it gets even crazier then that. But everything I try to remember, its gives me a headache. it feels like there something there the should be obvious to me or something is right in front of me but I see and understand nothing. please help