No, it's not bad at all. It's your body and minds natural defense mechanism kicking in ! You're just protecting yourself is all. Most people can't do that. You'll be fine and strong. Proud of you, Autumn!
I've been hurt so bad, that sometimes I can numb the pain and not feel anything at all. I can even block out dreams, is that bad?
When you are ready to deal with things, your feelings will come back. Right now, as Rooster suggested, your body is protecting you. Sometimes when you get hurt, it's so painful, it's hard to breathe, metaphorically speaking. In order to get through a painful event, your body will protect you in different ways. I don't know you, but you seem strong to me. I wouldn't worry about this. When you're ready, you will know it and it won't seem so scary to deal with. I wish you good luck with whatever you're facing. Reach out if you need more help.
Be careful because pain is there to tell us there's a problem. Pain teaches us not to go down a certain road again, or that we need to get out of a situation. Numbing yourself to it long term can cause you to forget there's a problem and grow used to it, which is very unhealthy for your well-being.
There are cases where you have to take things worth a grain of salt and numb yourself to them... Lord knows I do it all the time. But try to evaluate what it is you're blocking out on a regular basis and figure out why. You will get to know yourself better and be happier for it.
